Well...since I'm still at home, running away from all the fuss & tensions that I had in college, I'd like to review a liiiiiiiiitle bit about what had happened this semester. Or I'll just summarized up in one piece? Sounds good? okay! ;)
So what's cookin' this sem? I've taken these courses to fulfill my degree requirements:
- Veterinary Parasitology II *2credits course without practical..me likey~ but tough!*
- Clinical Skills *fun course..but sometimes....ugghh!!*
- Veterinary Pathology III *hahahaha!! ROFL~ still can't stop laughing when remembered the oral test with Prof. H*
- Veterinary Anesthesiology & Gen. Surgery *i LOVE surgery but i hate anesthesiology..don't ask me why~ =.=" *
- Veterinary Diagnostic Imaging *uhh...hmm....was it just me or everyone's also clueless bout this course?*
- Veterinary Clinical Pathology *ohhh dear...i prefer NOT to talk about this one..isk~ T.T*
- Small Ruminant Production *Like it when it 1st started...but as we go on.....zzzzZZZzzzz*
Enough about studies..can I talk about this "little" big something? Have you ever feel like you've been stalked, stared, COMPARED (or whatever) and being "talked-at-the-back" by someone? And the best part is, the person who've stalked (etc) you, claimed that he/she is better/slimmer/more beautiful/smarter/etc than you and your friends/colleagues? Did I hear "Yes"? coz I've felt this before and still feeling it..like NOW. I haven't really realized this before until a friend told me about it, and when I did a little research, I'm surprised the verdict looks like a Goody-Good-Shoes to me, always being nice and I thought this person is a good friend because this person is from well respected school. However, things have changed because all the "nice" things that this person has talked to me turned out to be disguisting! This person has stalked and comparing him/herself with me all along! Why didn't I realize it earlier? Ish3...=.=" I know, comparing..in a good way..to improve and make ourselves better is OKAY.. BUT, comparing + claiming yourself better + mocking & despising the person you're comparing with is NOT OKAY!!! Until now...whenever I saw this person, "Ms. Anger & Hate" in me will rise and feel like want to ask this person.."What do you want from me? You think you're doing like that will make you better?? aww...you're just feeling threatened & insecure aren't you? coz your gangs are more "superior" than you? Wake up!! I'm being myself coz it's me...I'm getting a little chubbier or have lose some weights..it's MY body and you don't have the rights to mock/scorn/contempt me and compare with me in this way! Go and have your life but don't do this comparison + mocking-thingy to me AND others! Do I make yourself clear? Good."
Fuhh...after this 'screaming', I feel a little bit better. Sorry for the harsh words, guys.. I'm just expressing what I've felt and locked all this time. yea..i know i should forgive and forget about this..but for this case..i can't take it anymore.. the 'screaming' above answers why did I put those kinds of status on FB those days you guys've asked about. Sorry because I can't talk the detail much here..it'll be like OBVIOUS.. let it be me and my friends know bout this, and hope that this misery will over soon!
I think I'll stop typing now...getting late already.. Night world~
P/s:- To that specific person, if you read this, do turn into new leaf..coz I respect you for who you are and where you're from. don't make me hate you (forever) or do anything dumb to you for you haven't see me angry yet. so please...be good to me..and i'll be good to you. Salam~
